To my forever beloved sister, Kak Ina and her husband, Abang Hashim, I would like to dedicate this slideshow to reminisce the sweet memories we all had together on your special days. I'm so sorry I wasn't able to stay long in Malaysia and had to fly back right after your wedding. May Allah bless your life with happiness and barakah. And may both of you complement each other well. Stay strong in navigating your life ahead. Chaiyok!!!

Puas sudah aku memaksa diri untuk tidur. Kejap lelap kejap celik, lelap dan celik lagi. Bosan. Lantas aku turun ke bawah mencari-cari apa yang boleh dimakan. Dilin sudah nyenyak tidur, Amy masih lagi gigih bersengkang mata. Kembali ke kamar tidur, aku hidupkan kembali komputer riba.

Rindu buatku susah tidur. Aku rindu saat yang telah berlalu. Saat yang sangat istimewa. Aku rindu Ramadan yang lepas. Tahun ini, penangan Ramadan benar-benar terasa. Sedih mengenangkan dosa yang aku himpun selama ini. Takut mengenangkan apa akhirku nanti. Malu mengenangkan aib yang akan terpampang di depan himpunan manusia kelak. Namun begitu, aku lega dapat mengalirkan airmata ketika meminta. Meminta kepada yang aku yakin Maha Mendengar. Meminta kepada Tuhan yang berkuasa ke atas hidupku. Aku juga bahagia dapat bertarawikh bersama teman-teman. Kadang-kadang bergilir menjadi imam. Hafalan mereka bagus apatah lagi bacaannya. Gembira ketika bersahur dan lebih-lebih lagi ketika berbuka. Paling penting, hidup terasa aman kerana hatinya tenang.

Minta diampunkan dosa diriku dan keluarga, mohon diberikan perlindungan dan petunjuk, harap dibukakan hati kepada hati yang ikhlas keranaNya, minta itu minta ini. Seronok meminta seperti anak kecil.

Lega. Sekarang baru aku terasa ingin lelap. Andai kata esok masih hidup, semoga adalah peluang untukku beramadan lagi.

Ya Allah, Tuhan yang Maha Mengetahui , sesungguhnya aku tidak mengetahui apa yang ada di depanku, maka berilah aku petunjuk yakni apa yang lebih dekat kepada kebenaran.

Ya Allah, Tuhan yang memasukkan cinta dan kasih sayang ke dalam hati manusia, sesungguhnya aku memohon cintaMu, dan cinta insan yang mencintaiMu serta cinta terhadap perbuatan yang mendekatkanku kepadaMu.

Ya Allah, Tuhan yang Maha Pelindung, aku memohon perlindungan padaMu Ya Allah daripada kejahatan bisikan syaitan dan daripada kejahatan diriku sendiri.

Amin...

Salam,

I read this from Khutbah.com and I thought it would be good if I could share it with everyone. Quite busy lately so this is the best I could do. Sharing is caring :D

Source : Khutbah.com by Muhammad Alshareef

It was narrated that in the days that Musa alayhis salaam wandered with Bani Israeel in the desert, an intense drought befell them. Together, they raised their hands towards the heavens praying for the blessed rain to come. Then, to the astonishment of Musa alayhis salaam and all those watching, the few scattered clouds that were in the sky vanished, the heat poured down, and the drought intensified.

It was revealed to Musa that there was a sinner amongst the tribe of Bani Israeel who had disobeyed Allah subhaanahu wa ta ‘aala for more than forty years of his life. “Let him separate himself from the congregation,” Allah subhaanahu wa ta ‘aala told Musa alayhis salaam. “Only then shall I shower you all with rain.”

Musa alayhis salaam then called out to the throngs of humanity, “There is a person amongst us who has disobeyed Allah for forty years. Let him separate himself from the congregation and only then shall we be rescued from the drought.”

That man waited, looking left and right, hoping that someone else would step forward, but no one did. Sweat poured forth from his brow and he knew that he was the one. The man knew that if he stayed amongst the congregation all would die of thirst and that if he stepped forward he would be humiliated for all eternity.

He raised his hands with a sincerity he had never known before, with humility he had never tasted, and as tears poured down on both cheeks he said, “O Allah, have mercy on me! O Allah, hide my sins! O Allah, forgive me!”

As Musa alayhis salaam and the people of Bani Israeel waited for the sinner to step forward, the clouds hugged the sky and the rain poured. Musa alayhi salaam asked Allah subhaanahu wa ta ‘aala, “O Allah, you blessed us with rain even though the sinner did not come forward.”

And Allah subhaanahu wa ta ‘aala replied, “O Musa, it is for the repentance of that very person that I blessed all of Bani Israeel with water.”

Musa alayhis salaam, wanting to know who this blessed man was, asked, “Show him to me O Allah!”

Allah subhaanahu wa ta ‘aala replied, “O Musa, I hid his sins for forty years, do you think that after his repentance I shall expose him?”

Note : Allah The Merciful, hiding our sins when we're sinful and accepting our repentance when we ask for it. It's never too late to ask for forgiveness even though we sometimes feel that there's no longer hope to turn back.